who wrote the book on supposed to's? the one that talks about all the shoulds and should nots? the one that tells me how i ought to live, act, be? i want to know who wrote the book because the author of all those supposed to's has ruled my life and dictated to me how i need to be living. i'd like to meet her because she's keeping me from my freedom. she has me bound, ball and chain. and frankly, i'm sick of her.
everyday i hear her incessant messages: "you should look better than you do. you ought to work on smoothing those rough edges. you are supposed to be seen and not heard. you shouldn't spend that dollar. you ought to plan for your future now. you are supposed to apologize, even if you're not wrong. you should go to the party just because you were invited. you should serve more, even though you don't want to or have any more time. you ought to go to school because you need to learn more. staying at home with your kids isn't enough, you should be doing something else more meaningful. you are supposed to cover up all those feelings so that no one knows how you really feel or what you really think, because if they did...well, they're just not supposed to."
well i'm tired of all the supposed to's. and i'm going to take a whack at this ball and chain with the ax of quiet. instead of listening to every opinion or new insight, tip, trick or self-help book, i'm going to listen to what's within. the Spirit that lives in my heart has all the supposed to's that i need, only he promises me that his yoke is easy, his burden is light, he has the truth, and his truth leads to freedom, not chains. but i haven't heard from him in a long time, maybe ever. instead i listen to the noise - the wind, the earthquakes, the fires...and i can only hear him when i'm quiet because he whispers.
and so, I begin. the axe is poised and ready. 3. 2. 1. shhhhhhhhh...